One Step at a Time
Recovery is all about baby steps. You won't make leaps and bounds in one day. You won't all of sudden wake up and it will be gone. It's a process. You have to work hard at it everyday. Like any addiction, eating disorders take complete control of your mind and to be able to move your mind away from the constant body shaming, negative self thoughts, thoughts of food and what you've eaten, the calorie counting, not thinking you're good enough, and the constant need to work out is a really difficult process. It is a battle against yourself. I was my own worst enemy.
There are a few things that have helped me get to a spot where I stopped having those thoughts and urges. I thought it was important to share them with you as I know doing at least one a day keeps the eating disorder away.
- Journal - Writing is extremely therapeutic. Write about anything, whether it be your emotions what you did during the day or what's happening/worrying you about life. Even if you tear it up at least you get it down on paper. I journal at least three to four times a week but at first I was writing every day.
- Stay active - Daily yoga and lots of walking is what I stick to. While traveling it's easy to get your steps in. But be sure to do something to get your blood pumping everyday. Good feeling endorphins do a lot.
- Explore a new place or do something new every week- It's easy to get stuck in a routine. Look up new spots to check out around your town and explore those areas like a tourist would
- Listen to music - Music is a form of therapy and is the gift that never stops giving. I listen to music at all times of the day. "With the right music you can either remember everything or forget everything"
- Stay away from the scale - Go by how you feel and how your clothes fit. it's okay to weigh yourself every other week if you really have to but don't make it an obsessive thing. • Pick one person you choose as your go to contact if you all of a sudden have an urge. Someone you are comfortable talking with. It could even be a helpline if you don't have a friend you want to open up to.
- Read more - Reading allows you to take your mind off everything and envelops you into a story whether it be fact or fiction. It allows you to expand your mind and increases imagination.
Don't lose sight of how strong you are. If you have a bad day or bad night don't let that ruin your whole week. The thing about progress is it's always changing and although sometimes we have our times our weakness, know that its temporary and that tomorrow brings a new day. This would be my struggle when I was bulimic. I would do really well for six days not acting on my urges, but still fighting them. Then I'd have a moment of weakness and a night where I would binge on whatever I could find in the fridge or pantry, I would be so down on myself the next day I would try not to eat at all and work out for hours on end. Little did I realize, the working out and not eating was all apart of the eating disorder as well.
Keep your chin up and repeat after me, "You are strong. You are a warrior. You are enough."